Rainbows in the Storm

Last Friday was a day I had been anticipating for numerous weeks. Bright and early, actually, it was still rather dark when dad picked me up to take me to the hospital...to get my port removed! Happy, happy, joy joy!! Pure ecstasy to get that piece of medical equipment out of my body! Five minutes into our drive I literally dropped my phone. I finally noticed Stryker’s text to me late the previous night letting me know Amanda is free of her suffering and went home to her Savior. The selfless part of me rejoicing in her relief from the immense pain. But the majority of me still selfishly wanting her back.  Thankful for rainbows in the storm. Yesterday as we were driving to Amanda’s visitation, I received a phone call. I recently interviewed for a different position in the same school district. I got the job! Happy, happy! Joy, joy! And then my heart flips back to the ache of missing Amanda. Then back to cheerful anticipation of new starts. On the emotional roller coaster of joy and pain. Seeking His face in both...the beauty of the rainbows and the relentless pelting of the downpour. Rainbows in the storm.