Enough

Today the sun is shining...again! Today, the train is chillin’ waiting for another to pass. Yesterday, the brown donkey got new “shoes”. Today, the river is calm. Yesterday, insurance denied covering basically anything. If you don’t play by their rules, don’t use their harmful medicines, and don’t allow them to hack your body into pieces, then you realize is a profiteering industry that could care less about our wellbeing, nor me having cancer. Why do I even bother working hard at a job to pay my insurance premium? Futile.

Wednesday I had enough. Enough of cancer, enough with this port inside my body, enough puking, enough exhaustion, enough worrying about finances and life after cancer, enough depression, enough watching my mom dying the slowest death the last twelve years. Enough! I am SO done with them.

I determined yesterday would be a good day, even if it wasn’t. The joy of sunshine really helped, too. No spewing the last couple days. No spewing physically. Yay! No negative verbal spewing. (Hubby is very thankful.) No...ok...”few” negative thoughts. Our thoughts become us. Still battling daily to CHOOSE joy, despite the circumstances. Thankful joy is a choice. "The joy of the Lord is my strength."

Yesterday was a good day.

Today will be a good day.