Ups and Downs

Today my heart is shattering for Amanda. She started here the same day as me. She is a young sweet, itty-bitty petite little hair dresser. She married her husband, Stryker, 2 years ago. Four months after the wedding she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Underwent traditional treatment and now the cancer has spread to her lungs and brain. She is in so much pain from the brain cancer. Please, please, please pray for her. Pray that the pain will be managed soon so she can focus on healing instead of just surviving the moment. Pray that she will be healed. And poor Stryker is simply besides himself with helplessness, aching to relieve his wife of her pain. I myself feel helpless next to her. I just sit there and pray and pray and pray. Ok...I am putting her in Jesus' hands...He's got this... and I need happy thoughts...

- I had to do some shopping this weekend. (That’s not the happy part; I don’t like looking for something specific on a time frame, a tight budget, and in an unfamiliar town.) Last week my shoulders and arms were cold all day in treatment. (That’s not the happy part either.) I didn’t pack what I need. (Nor that.) Sure I packed plenty of warm long sleeved shirts with fitted arms...but those don’t work with my PICC line. And, during treatment, I need short sleeves so the nurses have easy access to my PICC line frequently. So...hmmm...what to do. I bought a few sweater ponchos; I think that’s what they are called. And I bought some long socks. Then retrofitted them into long fingerless gloves. Worked like a charm! I wasn’t freezing today. (That’s the happy part!!!)

- And...I got a “Hot Dang!” from my nurse with my 5.3 Keto number this morning. I was all the way down to 1.3 in the afternoon but I’m choosing happy thoughts right now. - I was strong enough to do all my treatments today. Even read a little...very little. Not that strong. - Marina was looking and feeling much better today. Yay! - Realized I wore my underwear inside out all day! How did I not notice that?! Who does that? Too funny. - Got to enjoy sitting in the warm sun for 10 minutes today. - My body keeps showing detox signs--that’s the goal. Super exciting. That means progress. - The enema tubbing didn’t detach and squirt water all over me and the bathroom...today. Yay! Good times. - The partially full enema bucket didn’t fall off the counter and dump all over me, my mat, towels and bathroom floor...today. Yay! See...it could always be worse.