Humble Pie

My fear earlier?...It wasn’t fear of cancer. Cancer isn’t a death sentence if treated appropriately. It was more like the financial mountain of bills this will be. And, even more...what if? What if this it doesn’t even work? Besides wasting all of that money, there’s the humility of not choosing the “traditional” method. Humility for being wrong about choosing “natural” paths of healing. Paths I believe God created in our bodies to heal themselves and get back into balance. I’m already feeling like a quack because people know I eat healthy. Now I have cancer?! Seriously? Why would they choose food God created instead of “foods” chemists and assembly lines made with my poor example? So frustrating!

Read these notes tonight. I am guessing it is from one of Levi Lusko’s sermons. If you haven’t listened to any of his preaching, stop reading this, go to his blog and pick a sermon. If you don’t get drawn closer to God, you might want to check your pulse and pray. ;-)

“Do I live like Christ rules above my finances, family, health, career? Since Christ rules over ALL I can have confidence (servants power) when I am connected to Him."

Eph.1:18-23 In Christ I have...wisdom, head and heart knowledge of Jesus, hope, power and value. (We are the Father's inheritance."You are my treasured possession”. "Treasure"? God's wealth and precious love. What is something's value? It is based on what someone will pay for it; and God paid for us with the precious life of His Son, Jesus).”

Heart breakthrough! I finally feel like I understand deeper in my heart a tiny smidgen of God’s love for me. I was completely nauseous this morning over others spending money saving this temporary body of mine. But the money, they remind me, that’s just temporary, too. Regardless, it is still one difficult, heart-cracking, humility-inducing pill to swallow...having others giving their precious, valuable resources, time, and possessions for me. But it’s the medicine I needed to help understand more deeply into the crevices of my heart what my Heavenly Father has given me...His most prized, loved, adored, one and only Son...to pay for the saving of my eternal soul. I’ve had that head knowledge for as long as I can remember, but this physical, gut-wrenching emotional experience has tattooed it deeper in my heart. “How can it be?...How can it be?...that I should gain?”