Back to Responsibilities Post Diagnosis

First day back to work. Work up not feeling sick at all!

But...Wow! That was hard to get back in the groove of work. I think I am more tired emotionally than physically...that’s a good sign though that my immune system isn’t too overloaded from my procedures. Got out of the habit of having to inhale my lunch in 15 minutes. Ugh. I hate that. Another way they add stress to an already stressful job.

I realized today I am not angry because I have cancer; I am furious they put a titanium clip in my boob! I despise have that foreign object in me. And it can only be removed by surgery. The tumor is bad enough feeling like and alien in my body. Now I have this hard metal piece I can feel there, too. I so regret allowing them to do that to me. But I know, “what could have been, doesn’t exist; so don’t even go there.” Moving on. I’ve have lots of work to do on my state of mind in this battle ahead.

I feel like I didn’t make any progress in regards to fighting this battle today. Maybe just surviving the first day back to work is enough.

Tonight was also our last night for middle school youth group. Even though I was tired, I desperately wanted to go. So thankful I did. Our girls are so awesome, fun, hilarious and giving. The picture is of the girls prioritizing the outfits we were purchasing for the Salvation Army. Too cute! They were a breath of fresh air to a very heavy week. I couldn’t share my diagnosis with them yet. It would have been a downer on a very fun night together. They will understand. Love you ladies! Thanks for being just the medicine I needed that day.